The best for us.

things have gotten really hectic for us now baby
everything is all over the place
right now our hearts are teared into broken pieces
mama has put us in a critical condition
and love,
it is ever so hard for me to deal with this problem now
i love both mama and you so much but i know i have to choose only one

baby i know this is not fair for us
we've been through so many things together
despite those obstacles that we've been through,
we managed to pull our hearts together and stayed strong with each other
sayang i can say that im proud with this love
because we really had gone through thick and thin together
if u would recall back all those hard times that we had gone through....
we were really strong baby
that is why we are still here together
it makes me cry to miss you
it makes me cry to think of you
all those moments with you,be it happy and sad ones
i still treasure it deep inside my hear dear
i appreciate every step that you have take to bring my heart alive
sayang, in this love we had carried a lot of heavy responsibilities together
everything that is a part of me is also a part of you

ive always loved you with all my heart
no matter how harsh u might treat me at times,
i was still there standing strong by you.
trying my very best to help you change is always a challenge for me baby
until now i still fail to save you
but baby i swear i did and i gave my very best to help you
all the hurts that you have caused me have brought about learning points for me to benefit from
you made me brave and strong enough to go through all those painful times with you
ive learnt to love each and every part of your life
you made me independent enough to make decisions for us
and to make sure that everythingg between us will always be ok
im proud to be this someone that i am now
and baby im really proud of you
even though u have not changed fully
but ive seen you trying ur very best to change just for me
i love you malik
dear,always remember this,
whatever that i have done for you all this while
is not for me,
its for your own benefit
whatever that i have thought and advised you,
i hope you will always remember it in your heart

dearest love of my life,
you have been the greatest one for me~
i wont forget all those memories with you
i wont forget everythg that we have did together
be it the sweet romance that we shared
be it the fuss and fights
and be it the joy and happiness that we've been through
everything will always stay inside my heart for always sayang


baby i know its really hard for us accept the fact that we cant be together
but we know that we cant run away from this
a fact can never be changed
i cant bear to lose you
and i neither cant bear to see the breaking bonds between mama and me
even after typing all these i still cant get over the truth
im still in love with only you malik..
but we have to go on our separate ways by force
we have to do this
and we have to learn to accept this fact sayang
making this decision will definitely bring deep pain to our hearts
my decision have froze my heart
my heart feels like its being slashed endlessly
i could feel my sorrow crying hard for our love
my soul is never in peace to know that there is no longer me and you
only god knows how much pain we're going through baby)";


honey,
we still have to be strong)";
we need to put aside our hard feelings that we are having now.
we need strength to move on and keeping these hard feelings wont do any help baby
everyone have to go through this in life
but we must remember that this hurt shouldnt take us down but make us stronger at heart
it is fact that every pain wont last forever
one day god will heal our hearts baby
i know after this life wouldnt be the same without this love anymore))";
we just gotta be strong love)"";
im already missing you so much
but we have to hide ourselves from all this for us to move on~

dear,
anggaplah cinta kita sebagai contoh yang terindah untuk kita tempuhi segala rintahan yang kita akan lalui dengan whoever the new love would be))";
sayang its hard for me to accept this sey)':
but we really cant be together anymore~
tuhanku yang amat berkuasa dan amat menyayangi,
tolonglah berikan kami kekuatan dan ketenangan semoga kami dpt teruskan perjalanan hidup kami dengan hati yang rela~
baby after everything that we've been through together i hope you will grow stronger inside out.
dekatkan lah hatimu dengan tuhan sayang
i harap satu hari i will see you changed into a far better person
sayang,please dont ever give up in life.
We just have to move on and think far for our own future.
I dont wanna see you fall in life again dear.
one last thing that i will need from you baby,
i want to see you move on and have a fruitful life sayangku~
thank you so much for everything that you have done and sacrificed for me.
i hope to see you again.
May god bless you always.
And dearest,
i hope you can accept me as your friend....
)"";


With lots of love,
Anna.
Annalik,281209(always remembered)
i still love you))))";
take care always,
be it in the inside or the outside.
selamat tinggal kekasih hatiku...

me & you...

love,
day by day things are getting so hard between us.
everyday,every night without fail,we will always fight..
what is happening to us baby?
Will it be a good or a bad sign for our future~?
*huge sigh*

My mind is saturated with thoughts of us
dear,
sometimes i feel like we're gonna fall apart
cause the way our love is bringing us,
feels like as though we're coming to the end of the journey of this love)";
everything is not ok between us anymore
there will always be things that we will fight about

the reason why we are still here together is because of our patience
baby what if one day, we lost our patient between each other?
have you ever think of that...
we've always been looking on the bright side and always depending on time
we cannot wait anymore love
we have to do something~

Do you think we can make it till the end?
you must consider the family problem thingy also....
sigh
this is so hard for me seyy
sometimes i feel that what you said might be true
why did we choose to go this way?
why are we so daring enough to challenge ourselves to do this?
we didnt think of the consequences that we will face & we just went on with this love....
at this point of time,with all the things that we've been through,
its so hard for me to even think of losing you~
i cant even bear to see you taking a step away from me
i love you with all my heart malik

tell me what can we do to save this relationship?
this feeling is killing me
killing my heart, my soul, my mind, my everything....
when will i have peace again in my heart
i may seem happy when im with you but you nvr realise that my heart is always crying on the inside

you weakened my heart by keeping things from me
i always want to be there for you but you just seem to hide it from me instead of sharing it with me
you shettered my heart like a hurricane
baby i swear since the day we last met,
i already started to lose hope and faith on you
i feel like u cant see the efforts that ive put in to help you and save this love
i tried so much to change
and what you return me with are your complaints and you even blame almost everything on me


think about this..
what if one day,
i give up with handling your responsibilities...?
what will you do..?
do you think you can make it through...?
i still remember you said
"i ade mole on my shoulder, tu maknenye i pikul pengorbanan orang"
sorry baby,
but i think u hadnt proof me wrong,
i still think that u need to be someone more responsible
i dnt want to put stress all over you dear but u really need to realise all these
by all means, i dont wanna hurt you baby
till now,im trying very hard to lighten your burden....
i know you got ur own problems and i have mine too
sorry if all this while ive been adding up problems to you
i swear i wont add up to your burden anymore
i wont depend on you anymore
i will do everything on my own
i tknk susahkan you anymore
sigh
what more can i do to make things better between us......
im all out of love now.....


i miss those happy times between us...
just look how happy we used to be baby..
i dont see that in us anymore)";

you , you. and always you.

To you all these are nothing
Going out or not going out,
to you it makes no difference because im still not there with you
you dont know how i feel malik
even when you take a step out of ur house,
my heart will start to search for you
your house is like a replacement of my heart
the presence of you at home feels like the presence of you inside my heart
but once you're out of it, if feels like ure gg out from my heart
and my heart will never be in peace
you're enjoying out there and im here at home waiting for you with bruises all over my heart
from months to weeks,,
from weeks to days,
from days to hours,
from hours to mins,
from mins and now to seconds,
you hurt me with your everything
But you never did realise it because you always take things for granted
im not going to take care of your responsibility anymore
i wanna see how you manage your own life without me
you wanted the freedom to make ur own decision and now here it is
im giving you back your freedon like you always wanted
i hope youre happy with your decision
and may things between us turn up to be the best for us
may this love survive this painful war of yours

semogamu gembira selalu...

Kini segala kata-kata izinku bukan diberi tanpa kerelaan..
ku hanya mampu menahan cintaku untukmu sayang.
semoga satu hari nanti matamu akan terbuka
akan segala keperitan dan kelukaan yang telah ku lalui demi keikhlasanku untukmu~

Another hard day between us....

today i came to realise all the shits that i have done to you
im sorry for always forcing you to do things for me baby
i regret being selfish to you
your heart keeps changing every second dear....

i know you got a fragile heart deep inside you but you're keeping the truth from me
but sometimes your heart can be really cold
at times you brought me up with your outmost love
and at times you suddenly fall apart from me
your mind, your everyday life...
they are always full of ups and downs
when you are happy,everything between us will go very smoothly
but when you are not,things between us gets rather very hectic

baby you dont know how much ur actions,ur words, your promises, your everyting means to me
you may be aware of these but you dont really feel the burning flame i have for you
whenever you hurt me,
you really tear my heart into small little pieces
and sometimes the little pieces gets really small till it could not be glued together once again
you didnt know this right baby
ive always said that i forgive you
but a broken heart will always be a broken heart
no matter how hard u try to mend it,
the bruises that you caused to my heart willl still remains